f.e.e.l

really don't know with what I'm feeling about!became a strangers for him 
I'm always getting mad if he ask for me to care for him
getting angry for no reason
and I always disappointed him
I love him
for God sake, I love him so much!!
I always dreaming that I will getting married with him,
growing old together with him
having much babies with him
make a good family with him
making EVERYTHING with our heart, our love
but,,
now, I'm not sure  can trough our dreams
its because I'm not sure with my heart
I'm not sure with our family
I'm not sure with his family
I'm not sure with my family

AND I'm not sure that he is the only man that I love!
it sounds crazy.
yup,
I'm falling in love, AGAIN!!

and its with the other guy.
he is my best friend
I don't know when its start
I love my bf because he always there wherever and whenever I needed
I love my bf because he always cares to me
I love my bf because my family can receive him very well, and its not same as my family could receive my boy.
I love my bf because he is so funny! he always makes me laugh when I'm down.
I love my bf because, because he's just the way he is

#dilemma#

my bf said that he loves me

aaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I'm getting crazy with this situation!!!!!

sayangggg,, I love youuuu,,
and YOU, I love you too
but,
is it possible for me to have 2 BOYFRIENDS at the same time??!!?!?


#backsound : audy-janji diatas ingkar#

peluk

Menahun, ku tunggu kata-kata
Yang merangkum semua
Dan kini ku harap ku dimengerti
Walau sekali saja pelukku

Tiada yang tersembunyi
Tak perlu mengingkari
Rasa sakitmu
Rasa sakitku

Tiada lagi alasan
Inilah kejujuran
Pedih adanya
Namun ini jawabnya

Lepaskanku segenap jiwamu
Tanpa harus ku berdusta
Karena kaulah satu yang kusayang
Dan tak layak kau didera

Sadari diriku pun kan sendiri
Di dini hari yang sepi
Tetapi apalah arti bersama, berdua
Namun semu semata

Tiada yang terobati
Di dalam peluk ini
Tapi rasakan semua
Sebelum kau kulepas selamanya

Tak juga kupaksakan
Setitik pengertian
Bahwa ini adanya
Cinta yang tak lagi sama

Lepaskanku segenap jiwamu
Tanpa harus ku berdusta
Karena kaulah satu yang kusayang
Dan tak layak kau didera

Dan kini ku berharap ku dimengerti
Walau sekali saja pelukku

tanya hatiku

berat yah judulnya??
hehehehh
emang gw lagi gak jelas nih
tentang keluarga gw
tentang hidup gw
tentang hati gw
kalo boleh labil, gw mau bilang kalo gw lagi galau tingkat DEWA!
ahahahhaha